September 28, 2003 - 12:21 p.m.
Oh no! The weekend is almost over, aieeee!
Weekends are very important to me now. I remember a while back, when I started working full-time hours again, I said something to the effect of, "it's nice to look forward to weekends again."
But what I hadn't counted on is the flip side of it: the TOTAL DREAD of the weekend's end. I work a lot, as I keep saying (as though that problem is unique to me), and so I tend to schedule things for weekends. This is both good and bad: it's good because I end up having a lot of fun. But it's bad because I'll be falling asleep on Sundays in tiny panics, having not accomplished much.
I dunno, it's foggy and I always get kinda funky when it's foggy. Sorry if this all sounds like pointless whining.
On weekdays, I work, come home, cook ramen, check a few websites for updates and then I have an hour before bed, if that. My poor comic sits mostly neglected.
This bugs me because I'm nearly done with it, and my plan was to start another series with more of a structure in mind. But I've been having so much trouble just finishing this comic-- and my production standards are very low-- that I don't really know anymore. I tend to freak out if I'm not creating anything, so I just might go nuts if I don't create one, but I will also go nuts if I do, because it'll starve for attention like the current one.
Oh man. I am writing so, so terribly. I blame the fog and a food coma from lunch. I'd write later, but it's already been a week and I have the rest of the day all scheduled, so bear with me.
It's not that I'm not having fun; I am. Yesterday some friends came over and we did nothing but play F-Zero and watch Clone High, and somehow it was one of the most satisfying days I've had in a long time.
It's just... THE COMIC! Aughhh! It's so nearly complete! Then all I'll have to do is get it together and mail it out to everyone I promised it to. It's so darn late, I'll do it for free. But I've got to figure out a way to make time for creativity. Maybe I can schedule time, like, Wednesdays are comic days and I plan around that.
This is a really dumb entry, and I'm sorry. Of course, nothing has really happened to me lately, either. I'm a lot better at telling stories than I am about examining my own neuroses.
I'll try to replace this entry with something interesting and coherent at the first available opportunity. Tonight, perhaps.
OR maybe I'll have to wait for the next WEEKEND!
I'm not stressing out, honestly. I'm just in a funky mood right now. I should have written this morning when I was smart, which was my plan, but I ended up sleeping in. I gotta remember that as good as it feels at the time, there's always something better to do with those hours than sleep them away.
